What is the picture of “perfect health”? Is it having nice skin, long hair, thin waistline, and wearing high heels? This was how I had put myself together, thinking, “If I look good, I will feel good, and that will mean that I am well.” I was sorely wrong.
In 2009, I was diagnosed with Crohn’s Disease. I had been working at Morgan Stanley as a Financial Advisor, and planned on becoming one of the most successful women in the business. Fast forward to April 2011 when I had my first Crohn’s flare that kept me in the hospital for three weeks “NPO” which means “nothing by mouth” and receiving all of my nutrients through an IV from a bag of liquified fats, proteins, and carbohydrates. Nearly a month later, I returned to my (new) normal life that consisted of chronic fatigue, administering shots of Humira in my upper thighs twice a month, and not fitting into any of my clothes due to the large amount of weight I had lost.
I spent most of 2011, 2012, and 2013 in and out of the hospital with flares, and tried countless amount of medications that were not successful in treating my disease, and lost a lot of time at work and with loved ones. In April 2014, I had my first (and hopefully last) surgery that removed 12 inches of my small bowel and my appendix–for good measure. Needless to say, I had lost quite a bit of weight, and although the surgery was a success, I was left feeling quite “ugly”. I joked with friends that I was getting a head start on my bikini bod for the summer, but deep down, I didn’t feel like my best self. Why did I have such negative self-image if I was so slim and trim? Isn’t the world obsessed with how skinny one can get, and the skinnier the better? I can honestly tell you that no, being thin does not equate happiness.
That is why I am here today. To take you on the same journey I have been on for the past two years…a journey to a better WHOLE SELF. Everything in life requires balance. We cannot successfully maintain a lifestyle that restricts us from enjoying the foods we love, or requires us to spend countless hours at the gym. Rather, it is about maintaining a balance that allows you to enjoy life while creating the proper foundation to give you a better tomorrow. I am talking about physical and emotional health because without one, we cannot enjoy the other. This has led me to my personal motto…
It’s not about being skinny,
it’s about being your BEST WHOLE SELF.